i need more time

seriously, why is there only 24 hours in a day? cant it be at least 30?
it's ridiculous how much time i spend in transit and doing meaningless crap that take up so much time that i dont have atm.

i'm so time restricted that sleep and time for myself (aka WoW time) is basically scheduled.

thanks work for making my life a living hell of schedules and deadlines.

it's getting late - i guess i just wanted to write this for catharsis.

hope you're all doing well.

I hit my head on the desk

just a song i wrote about my frustrations at work.

sing to the tune of "i whip my hair back and forth"

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I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk


drag my arse out of bed cos i slept late
got home at 9 cos i had to stay back
work's being good and all
and i love making videos, but if they keep making me redo crap
i think i might hit someone

so watch out (yea)
if you give me a job
and change it at the last minute
i'm might make a fuss, make a fuss
make a fuss, make a fuss, make a fuss

tryin' not to let idiots keep me off my grind
if i keep my head up i know i'll be fine
i keep fighting until i get there
but if i'm done and they make me do it again;

I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk

i only got 2 more years in this gig
Soon as i hit that date, y'know i'm quittin it.
never work for church again cos they're idiots
cos they dont know how long it take to render
they tell me "mmmm nah, maybe not"
once they're out of the room, i hit it real hard
i hit it real hard, real hard, i hit it real hard

tryin' not to let idiots keep me off my grind
if i keep my head up i know i'll be fine
i keep fighting until i get there
but if i'm done and they make me do it again;
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk

All my video people if you feel me
do it do it "head" your desk ("head" your desk)
Don't matter if its wood, steel (wood, steel)
do it do it "head" your desk ("head" your desk)

All my video people if you feel me
do it do it "head" your desk ("head" your desk)
Don't matter if its wood, steel (wood, steel)
do it do it "head" your desk (your desk, your desk)

I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Just hit it)
I hit my head on the desk
I hit my head on the desk (Hit it Real good)
I hit my head on the desk

Ink

I wants one.

or two.

btw, the one on your left (my right) is Hebrew script.

Travelling

i want to travel.

i've always wanted to go places, see the world, experience cultures.
but to do that you need money, and to get enough money you have to stay in one place for a while.

i'm doing that now - i've been at this job for about half a year and counting - which is quite surprising seeing how time flies by so fast; it didn't feel like 1/2 a year at all.

it's a pretty good job, it's got it's rewards, the pay is pretty good for a guy like me but i'm jealous of the people who can just go take some time off work and go somewhere for 3 months.

i mean, it makes sense if you're part of a work force that has 20 other people like you and that it's not that much of a hassle if you go away for a few months.
but for me; if i miss a day or two - God forbid; 3 days - the news and special items go to crap.
and there's no-one to take my place if i go; there's no intern to pass my work on to, there's no volunteer that's going to be able to do the same work i do.

being a company asset sucks!

but getting back to the point - there are times i wanted to go back to studying; not just to learn crap but to have the free time to travel during the breaks and what not.
but i dont want to dish out thousands of dollars for tuition just for "free time".

oh well, i guess i should just take it as it goes. Annual Leave is such a B.

Moving Out

i want to move out of my parent's house.

not because i hate it here - it's because it sucks having to live so far away from work.
and also i want a taste of independence before i come crawling back to mum's home cooking (hopefully not too soon).

well, i found this awesome place that's basically a stone's throw from work and it's only $650 a month. basically with that, i can still pay for my bills (phone and other repayments) and still have some money spare for groceries and a possible internet bill. it's a Bedsit or a Studio apartment so it's roughly a room with a kitchen... well not that small anyway.

but sadly, as i was trolling around looking for other options, i couldn't find this property. i googled the exact address and i saw that it had been removed by the advertiser.

does that mean that it's been rented out?

probably.

Dammit!

should i take this as a sign from God? dont leave home yet?

but it SUUUCKS having to wake up at 7 in the morning and spend around an hour to get to work! even if i do get a car, it's still the same time frame; and it'd be more cost effective for me if i just took the Train.

Dammit - i wish i had my license already so i could consider some of the (not as) cheap apartments in the nearby Suburbs...

maybe that's what i need to do.

1. Get License and a Car
2. Get Apartmet
3. Live it up :P

i wouldnt mind having something like this (but with a kitchenette)

i have a lot of impressing to do.

i think it's been agreed on that i'm going to have to go to the UK sooner or later - i'd rather sooner, but other plans have gotten in the way (i'm (trying) not (to be) bitter), cos i have to meet Garbo's friends and family sometime.

anyway - i always knew that i'm going to have to make a good impression on her friends and family, and i always thought i could just wing it.
that might not be such a good idea after all.

i mean, i have watch what i say and do.
i'm a pretty embarrassing guy to be with (for those who havnt been around me enough to know), i dance in public, i sing retardedly catchy songs and i get a bit crazy when i'm with my friends (to a certain point). oh and sometimes i might not catch on the situation as quickly as i should and i usually say something or do something that ruins some surprise or makes the situation be REALLY awkward.

but basically i gotta follow 3 rules.

1: keep your hands to yourself
2: smile and nod.
3: do everything they tell you to.

i think if i follow this, i'm in the clear. doncha think?

oh and an addendum;
since garbs has gone back to the UK, i'm gonna have to adjust the times that i get to talk to her... and it's gonna SUCK! i'm way used to the 2hr difference. i don't know how i'll cope.

PS. the pic above was the ACTUAL picture i wanted to use, but when i direct linked it, it ended up giving me that stupid stop sign.
 
PPS. i'm actually quite good with my friend's parents, they love me. i guess i'm not that worried as such but it's going to be weird calling them auntie and uncle then in a few years calling them mum and dad (hopefully).

lulz

sorry i've been totally neglecting my blog; havnt really had any good ideas to blog about lately tbh.

as of right now i'm running on 2 hours of sleep mainly because of the World Cup being shown at 4am and my friends getting absolutely hammered on alcohol and me and a friend of mine being the only ones sober (enough).

so basically i got home at 7am and i went to sleep. soon after my Mum comes busting in my room; her voice more shrill than any alarm man has to make and yells "Get ready - we're going to your aunt's for lunch"...

at 9 am. Faaaantastic.

but that's besides the point. the point is i just wanted to share to you some stuff i found on "FFFFound!" that i thought was cool or made me laugh cos i'm a nerd.


apologies for just posting links; i cant seem to get the images - it's better this way so atleast i can say i'm not infringing copyright.

Italics Pisa

had this toy when i was small

ryu's skills set

evolution of the Hipster

Jesus vs Darwin

RGB

Jesus casts Curaga  - it might be a bit blasphemous but it's final fantasy related :P

have an awesome day

guys entry up

the guy's version of "because God is Awesome" by Musing Mutley is up!
and i'm in it! hehe

http://musingmutley.blogspot.com/

New Blog

hey guys; a friend of mine from church has started a new blog that has 2 things one should have; God and Style.

so basically the blog's all about God and Fashion :D

enjoy.

http://musingmutley.blogspot.com/

btw - i'm gonna be in the next entry :D :D

Happy One Year

or Two years if you count the ustream/skype dating.

just wanted to tell you that there'll be many more years where this one came from!

hope they're filled with laughter and lots of love.
and hopfully you dont pull the ugly face too often, it might stick :P

i love you tremendously.

Your Ralphie

Intense Camp Revelation

So I just got back from a Youth camp - when i say got back i mean i'm now writing this blog after speaking to my girlfriend and my best Chingu in America after i got back from camp.

anyway - i wanted to post this here just so i have a reminder about what God spoke to me in the 2nd night at Youth Camp.

that is; Have A Relationship With God.
that's all there is, but is it?

 It's so easy to say that you'll read the Bible everyday or pray to God everyday; but when it comes to doing it and to KEEP ON doing it is Hard as Cuss.

tbh i used to pray every morning and evening and now - nothing.
i used to read the bible with my girlfriend and we'd talk about it on skype; now - nothing.

when i look at myself, i feel so ashamed to call myself a Christian sometimes, an ambassador for God, the light atop a stand for the world to see.
but if this light starts to weaken and starts to die out - then it's not a good light, now is it?

i havn't done REALLY bad things - just stuff that a normal person might do but a christian shouldn't.
and i guess i wouldn't mind coming clean about some of the stuff i've done, because you guys can't really judge me :P


i used to smoke - both the wacky and the non-wacky type of tobacco. i didn't chain smoke or anything, i only smoked when my friends did and as a christian it's worse because your friends know you're a christian yet you're with them doing the same things they are and not setting a better example.

there's another thing but i won't reveal it only because it involves a 3rd party and this is about my troubles not theirs.


but yeah; i live different lives, one in church, one at home and one with friends.

and in this camp God told me to just live one; the one that lives for Him.
and it just struck me, out of the many times that God has tried to convince me about what i've been doing this one i know has stuck on me (before, i started to change then i got complacent and went back).

so now - no matter what my friends say, what they call me i'm going to stop and turn away if they're doing things that are not pleasing to God.

so now i'm going to start praying, reading the bible and being in God's presence more because what's a relationship when one side just does all the communicating?

i don't mind if you dis-agree or you feel like you don't relate; this entry is just for me to remind myself to spend that quite alone time with God once in a while and have a nice chat with my Heavenly Father.

PS i felt like i needed to say this:

God Loves You, i know it sounds cliche but He Really does, He loves you like no-one else can, has or ever will. He loves you even if you've done something bad in the past or you've been "good" all your life. He loves you regardless of your sexual orientation and He loves you for who you are behind closed doors. He really wants to have a relationship with you, and if you would let Him in your life even for just once - you'll see how wonderful He can really be.

check out my new Wallpaper on my Mac

geneology... once removed

i've always wondered what you would call your Cousin's child or your Cousin's child's child, etc...
 in my family, if you're a generation higher; you're an uncle or aunt - no matter what your age is.

so if your great aunt (grand ma's sister) has a child (miraculously - seeing as she'd be probably in mid-menopause) when you're lets say 20 - that child according to my family would be your aunt.
only because generation wise; you're later than the baby.

imagine - calling a baby auntie or uncle... it's freakin weird.

but i did some googling research and found out that your great aunt's child is your 1st Cousin ONCE REMOVED.

i always wondered about the whole "once removed" stuff that i read in books and hear about in movies.
i always thought that the removed status was because they were disowned and was accepted back.
and i thought that if you were "thrice removed" then you were probably a lousy cousin.

but it turns out that the "removed" status applies to how many generations later or previous that cousin is.
so if your cousin is one generation later (your cousin's son/daughter) or one generation previous (your uncle or aunts cousin) they would be your first cousin Once Removed.
and it's twice removed if it's 2 generations previous or later, etc.

the whole first, second, third, etc cousin thing is related to who their parents are; for example:

your first cousin is your direct cousin from your parent's siblings.
your second cousin is the child of your great uncle/aunt's child (your 1st cousin once removed).
and your third cousin is the child of your 2nd cousin once removed.


it's really confusing; no wonder some cultures just call each other uncle/aunt/elder brother/sister;
it's easier that way and also it makes the relation a bit closer.

image courtesy of wikipedia

things i've noticed

a.k.a  "stuff i've already known but just thought of mentioning it now"

1. i need a waterproof pad to write my ideas whilst in the shower (saw one on google - it exists)
2. i'm too lazy to capitalize the letters that need capitalizing but i tend to capitalize the ones that dont.
3. i might possibly be starting my first ever full time job that involves something that i'm interested in and am trained to. i'm also slightly scared i might screw up.
4. adding 2 front slashes "/" before or after a title or sub-title makes it look cooler.
5. dual titles are also cool.
6. i think i have a slight imbalance of hormones that impedes my body from giving me more armpit hair but also stops me from breaking out from pimples. it's bittersweet.
7. i'm not yet used to sleeping alone.
8. i know quite a bit about the bible/christianity , quite so that i've surprised myself.
9. i forget easily
10. i get distracted easily
11. i'm a memento hoarder. if it means something to me - i keep it, no matter how slightly insignificant. i have a box.
12. this blog entry is jut a way for me to write topics out that i cant be bothered fleshing out
13. or i'm just restraining myself from boring you with long ass entries
14. i've always like the notion of getting married - not just because of my religion, i cant bear to be just BY MYSELF and JUST have a companion (that i change every now and then).
15. i plan to get married with the person i'm with atm.

i'm probably going to add more to this as i think up of some more.

short post about airports

did yall know that i spent more time in china than i did in my own home (i recently moved)

crazy

i'm in sydney domestic airport at the moment and my flight still hasnt got a gate yet. it's worrying me.
i have had a short stint of unfortunate events concerning airports lately and i dont think i'll be surprised if this is another one of them.

btw

my flight from Shanghai to Sydney was delayed because the plane had to go back to Sydney because of electronic problems or something.
so the flight itself was at 1:30 in the morning.
thankfully Qantas went and book all the passengers a room at a nearby airport hotel and that's where i stayed for a couple of hours before we got called back.

the flight was alright, i had 2 seats all to myself, some had 3 but i had the view.
i watched michael jackson's THIS IS IT on the plane, it was pretty good; too bad he died cos that would have been AWESOME.
i also watched Dorian Grey... it's an alright movie, i havnt read the book but i'm sure the movie follows it quite close.

hopefully my flight gets its gate soon cos i'm starting to hate airports.

Hong Kong

hi

so sorry if i havnt been writing, china internet blocks all form of free speech, ergo, no FB, no YT no blog.

however dailybooth works...

that aside i've been having a GREAT time; lemme give you a quick walkthrough of my trip here in the motherland.
(WARNING - HELLA LONG ENTRY, make some tea or coffee or our favourite drink before/while reading this)

Day 1 - 2: in nanjing, chill out post flight and getting ready for shanghai trip.

Day 3 - 17: Shanghai, i saw falling snow for the first time EVER... i was like a little kid.
we went to the Shanghai Financial Building (100 floors up, you can see all of shanghai), this place called "Fenshine" where everything was pretty dang cheap and probably fake to a degree; "The Bund" which was like the river side where you can see the Shanghai City Scape but bits of it were in under construction for this business conference later this year, The Shanghai Aquarium (pretty good) and Hooters... which was funny - a chinese hooters. (make the racial connection people)
We also had garbo's friends over (we stayed at her sister's posh apartment). we got introduced to the awesomeness of Squash and i felt very inadequate after working out with Garbo's friends Ian and Luca. We also had Christmas in shanghai - we ate italian food.

Day 17 - 22: Went to Beijing where we saw the Forbidden City, Tiananmen Square, Temple of Heaven, saw how Jade sculptures were made, had a tea ceremony, saw Peking Opera, Chinese Acrobats and did the Michael Jackson leaning thingie on the Great Wall (we went to the great wall on Jan 01 2010 :D ).
We celebrated the turning of the New Year on the roof of the Youth Hostel we were staying at, and it snowed that night and on the morning of the new year, the roofs of beijing were white with a light blanket of snow.
We also had a taste of fried silkworms, which tasted FOUL beyond words, ate shark meat (on a stick) and dog meat (on a stick). some guy tried to sell us Sheep Penis (or sheep cock or sheep dick - the guy's exact words) but we said no.

garbo wanted some as soon as we went away though...

Day 22 - 35 (i think): Back in Nanjing, but a couple of days re-packing in Shanghai first.
in nanjing we tried to get my visa extended (cos my plane ticket was booked for 2 months and 2 days), but were told that we had to have about $5000 AU either in hard cash or in some reserved form.
so i had to ask my parents (and sadly garbo's aswell) to help out with the money thing.
Which actually happened, we gathered around 26,000 Chinese RMB (more than the required amount) and just left it in my Paypal Acct.
We went back and was told that we had to fill in this form for temporary residency at the local police station, so again, we had to go back the next day.
the thing was, we thought that if we were filling out a residency form; the place where i'm residing (garbo's accomodation) required guests to be registered as to avoid future problems. well, we tried to do the right thing and instead ended up getting told to only stay there for 3 more days and then get out.
we filled the form anyway and thank God that the cops didnt/havnt check/ed.

to make a long story short - we got the application approved (after alot of stress that is...)

4 days ago from now, garbo decided just out of random to go to hong kong.
so i got my parents to wire some money and 3 days later: here we are.

so first night in Hong Kong, we walked the breadth and width of "Nathan Rd" (BIG BIG road) and went to "Ladies Night Market".

Today we got on the Ferry to go to Victoria Peak, on the way there we stopped to check on some Camera stores, because Garbo wanted a clear lens filter. on a particular store, i asked how much the Sanyo Xacti was and got told it was HK$1000 (which is quite cheap), i said "Oh, ok; thanks." and started to walk out. The man followed me and said, "$800 then" i was like, "i would, but i dont have enough money at the moment."

the man's face changed, he scowled "no money? Then why are you in Hong Kong? Go Back Home!"

douche.

anyway, we had to go on this tram that went up this REALLY steep incline to the peak and we just had a walk around, the place wasnt Awesome but it was still pretty cool, they had a Madame Tussaud's but we didnt go cos it was EXPENSIVE.
 when we got down and got back to the mainland, we went to "avenue of the stars", it's like hong kong's version of The Hollywood Star Walk :P

it was pretty cool, saw some hand prints of the chinese actors/actresses that i recognised and there was a statue of bruce lee (that i posed beside of).

afterwards we jsut went to a shopping mall to look for Lomo cameras and found a small shop FULL of Holgas.
Cheap Holgas.

planning to get one... hopefully, when i get money.

anyway that's pretty much it, thanks for sticking around reading this stupid arse entry.
i also kinda wanted to get rid of my previous emo entry.

Cya guys, till next time.